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Haix…i’ve just lost my mobile on Friday, after the Thanksgiving celebration at church…The problem is, I don’t even know where i’ve lost it, but i know it is not in church cos i took it out when i was walking out and was feeling sick when i saw that the hp batt had died.I know it is the 100th time…but i really have no idea why…

It is possible that i may have lost it when i ran, or i may have dropped in on the bus…i called SBS Transit Lost & Found but they have found a few phones on that day, but there were no Nokias found!!! i have already bought a new phone, but i m stilling missing the phone…i just hope that someone kind can return to me…

Mum is anxious to get a BF for one of my cousins and she has just spotted one of my guy friends at my BBQ. Lots of grilling… my cousin’s a nice girl and my mum really dotes on her…Awkward topic though, especially when my parents are not usually so open to this. I don’t know if I should play match-maker but I thought it wouldn’t be appropriate…esp if anything happens etc.

Had job offer…due to the job scope and some sentimental feelings to my current job, I m not taking it. It may be a nice company that we are talking about, but I believe there is more to a place than the $$ factor and the brand. Not sure if I am going to regret in future, but I believe it is probably not something that I want to do. When a goal is set, I believe that we should concentrate on achieving our goal and keep our distractions away…and even if that means a higher salary or a higher status…

Christmas is about a month away! Not especially exciting, but nice to look forward to the festive occasion and the new year.I need a new start to my life.

My boss had just received a CHIJ doll from her friend…and its so cute Looking at this CHIJ doll, it reminds me of the times i had in Primary School…many times i have been tempted to leave the hotel industry to go back to my alma mater to teach…but i just cannot do it…太舍不得了..

I guess i m a very sentimental person. Probably it hinders my progress, probably it makes me sad and frustrated.For 2 major issues in my life, I can choose to stay in the comfort zone or 闯 all the way in a new environment. For many years, i had dreamt and wanted a certain lifestyle. It is like you plan everything…and suddenly, due to some bad timing, an opportunity presents yourself. then soon you find yourself at the crossroads and  dun know where to go. Then perhaps one day you will find yourself 走投无路. Think thats a sad case.

I know my friend is in need of comfort. I know. And i hope he is reading this. He has just gone through a breakup and i know it is tough for him.However i cannot let him wallow in self pity.I may seem non-chalant…but i believe,the more i comfort him, the more he is not going to recover from this fall. He might say that his buddy do not care for him, but i would rather he learn his lesson and move on. after a while, after thinking thru, the pain does fade…and i hope it will happen to him…

I m going to Bintan for 7-9 December 2007 and i hope it will be a good trip with at least 6 of us there…How i wish some others will join but seems like everyone has something on. No matter how many pple are going, or whatever happens, i am going to enjoy myself. But i m going to miss the company X’mas dinner…its a pity…

Cheers!

Good Morning. Its Monday once again. i didn’t slp well last night cos i dreamt i was doing some big investment and it was on the rocks…and therefore the entire night was spent " saving" the business.Gosh! Now I feel so tired, and work officially starts in 45 mins.

The weekend was a nice one…and i m looking forward to the next…

I just checked my hotmail a/c and saw a forwarded email from Annabelle. My colleague’s 10/11 yr old daughter.And this email says:

I AM THANKFUL:

Today is 9 Nov - 7:52am.Already in office. I am in the attempt of going to work early to prepare and to eat breakfast. Reaching office at about 715, I eat my Nasi Lemak with Ice Milo at Toastbox or Mr Teh Tarik…or i tapau from either stall and eat in office…sounds good except that i m feeling tired…i wake up 2 hours earlier than before but still slp at 12.30am/1 am …its 5 hours…barely enough.

I need groups…am working very hard to get groups. Think im more and more comfortable doing sales though groups dun come in as fast as i would like. i know some pple would like to see me fail and quit,but one reason i am still here is to stay here and show dat i can do it, esp when i m establishing more and more contacts now. May the force be with me.

Within 1 week, I have already watched 3 movies - The Seeker, Stardust & Bee Movie…very nice…

Stardust - highly recommended by yours truly. Movie talkes about Tristian (Christian Cox) ,promising the village beauty Victoria to bring her a falling star and the deal was for her to marry him once he got it.However, he found out that the fallen star was not a rock but a lady named Yvaine (Claire Danes). Witches were looking for her to dig her heart out so that they can remain young eternally. Another prince needed her necklace so that he could be king. Tristian tried to protect her from them, and in the process, they fell in love with each other. Its a nice fairytale with good comedy…With my fave star Claire Danes and the good story plot…it is definitely worth the the ticket price.

Bee Movie - Being a fan of animated movies, I watched this on Deepavali. It has a funny storyline and many were laughing throughout. However, I personally feel that it is not as good as other movies like Ratatouille & Ice Age. Talks about the fresh grad of bee school that goes out of the hive to get pollen but realise that humans have been consuming honey w/o their permission.He defies bee law to talk to humans and make friends with a good natured florist. Being angry with humans for honey consumption,he sued them and won the case, bringing back all the honey in supermarkets etc..However this brought some harm to everybody.

The Seeker - The Dark is rising is a nice story and makes you feel a little anxious.Will, a 14 year old boy who has to go on a mission - colleect 6 types of signs within 5 days for the "light" to be powerful. If he is unable to collect all signs then he will not be able to conquer the dark- and the world will die. Had a good story but not a terribly good ending.

December is here soon. No snow in Singapore. No more annual leave for hoildays. but still look forward to the festive season. December - Christmas; January = New Year; February- CNY. Fanstastic! ~~

Its me…its me after a long while… September & October seem to be always challenging months for me… (Sometimes i wonder why).I did a small BBQ and invited some frens for my b’day at Costa Sands…a nice gathering but it was damn tiring…by 1130pm i was alr hafway in dreamland…Thanks to those who came though. Many many flowers this year…was overwhelmed…i bought an ipod classic for myself and treat myself to lots of good food and clothes…my pocket became very light indeed.

After the sunshine comes the rain, i have to make some difficult decisions (again!) I really hope to make a good decision in which i will not grow to regret… Lots of decisions to make. lots of things to consider…I continue to ponder. For the sake of all, I have to make a decision fast and quick. For a person like me, it is extreme torture to do so.

Been sick for a couple of weeks. Some vomiting, lots of burping and hiccuping.Doctors say its the gastric prob and there is too much acid (should i take more alkaline..imagine Eveready…) haha. Lots of medicine to take. Lots of rest and TLC. HAHA.

Its been 2 months since I’ve written in this blog - Some pple have asked me why- but anyway many things happened in these 2 months and there was seriously alot of mental work involved My thinking, feelings, and attitude changed tremendously. Maybe God was helping me. God wanted me to be a happier person…But sadly, alot of $$ was spent on retail therapy to make me feel better. It did…but my pocket had a really big hole…

Some food for thought:

Lillian brought me to her church the 2nd time, and from that time, I really like attending church. I m not sure of the change, but i told myself to at least try to be a good Christian (not a part time Christian anymore). So now i attend church almost every Sat or Sun.

Perhaps all the while i have been taking things too hard, and perhaps I have been giving myself and people around me unnecessary pressure.Now i think i take things as they go…I guess that trying first and later letting nature takes its course is a good choice.

I need to appreciate things around me: I treasure things and pple around me, and will continue to do so. I guess sometimes i am quite demanding in certain areas and glad that my friends are still around.

Thats all I guess….

Anyway, the Siem Reap trip was fun. Brought my mind off many bad thoughts.There were so many scenes which made me appreciate what we have in Singapore…We climbed Angkor Wat which was steep and tall…we had Royal Khmer Cuisine cooking class, Cambodian outfit photoshoot…Its a visit that I will never forget.

During these few weeks, Junyan and Thiviya have been giving nice advice - thanks uh :)I have also made a new friend - must thank this friend for taking care of me and bringing lots of laughter to my life - you know who you are uh…

"The Five People You Meet In Heaven" by Mitch Albom is one of the best books I have ever read…Although it is a simple and its a fictional book, it really tugged at my heart strings…I believe we all can relate to this book…no wonder writer Amy Tan says "This book is a gift to the soul". This books tells us - "All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time…"

This book uses a character, Eddie (Edward) to tell us some of the simple things in life that we fail to realise.Eddie is a 83 year old lonely man, whose wife had passed away a long time ago. He tried to prevent a tragic accident but he ended up in heaven…He learns that heaven is not a lush Garden of Eden but a place where earthly life is explained to you by 5 people who were in it. These people may be loved ones or distant strangers, yet each of them changed your path forever…

One of the most touching parts was the part when he met his wife in heaven.She was the 4th person she met…An excerpt that made me feel a lot…

Eddie -"You died. You were 47.You were the best person anyone knew, and you died and you lost everything.And I lost everything. I lost the only woman i ever loved".

She took his hands."No you didn’t. I was right here. And you loved me anyway.Lost love is still love, Eddie. It takes a different form thats all. You can’t see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around. But when those senses weaken, another heighten. Memory.Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it.Life has to end. Love doesn’t"

He smiled and she smiled, and she was, as beautiful as ever, and he closed his eyes and said for the first time what he had been feelin from the moment he saw her again." I dun want to go on.I want to stay here" When he opened his eyes, his arms still held her shape, but she was gone, and so was everything else.

Another of this is meaningful…from the 3rd person( Ruby) to Eddie

"Learn this from me.Holding anger is a poison.It eats you from inside.We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade.And the harm we do, we do to ourselves. Forgive, Edward. Forgive"

There is always a saying " People come into your life for a reason…". I believe so…I have met many people…some nice, some caring,some wicked, some cruel…some selfish…but i always believe that people are here for a reason…to help you, to make you learn…But i am always sad, when people who shower me with love and later, for some reason or another, leave me…its like giving me a beautiful dream for the longest time, and later pushing me into darkness.

My flight to Siem Reap is at 0840hrs tomorrow. It will definitely be a fun trip. But after coming back from Siem Reap, I will have to face the music.Hope its beautiful music that I will be facing and listening to.But whatever the case, I have to face it bravely. As always, I hope and pray for the best.

I was so shocked to hear on Friday from Yukari dat she wanted to have a farewell dinner with me…so shocked she will be leaving Singapore for Shanghai, but she wun know when she will be back

Actually it wasn’t a really big shock, but it is just that it was earlier than expected. She told me she was thinking of going back to Japan…

Yesterday we had gone to Raffles City for western food…and after that i brought her for cakes…but we ended up arguing who was to pay for the meal…Yukari is really a nice girl. When we parted, she kept thanking me for being her friend.

I cannot bear to part with her. We only knew each other since the KL trip in Sept 06. My other friends like Rus, Junyan may be away but they will be back soon in a few months…Yukari may not be back here anymore…BUT I wish her all the best. Even b4 she left she said she wanted to help me with my probs…Really touched…really sad to let her go…With her, i had a lot of happy memories…she liked to talk to Bryan and make fun of him…

Life is really unfair for me sometimes…I dun want pple to leave me…Countless probs this year…Wonder when all this will end…I am gritting my teeth and carrying on…just pray that things will be fine soon…